#nowplaying Holding Back The Tears

we thought we were meant for each other.
we believed that it was going to be forever.
you said i were everything to you.
you said without me there would be no us.
we'd been going through the hardships, joys, and tears.
but look at now, we've parted ways for so long.
is this really what we want?
don't you miss me even once?
don't you miss us?

i feel like crying everytime your name is being called.
i feel like crying everytime i see your pictures.
don't you know it's THIS hard to keep loving you?
tho people say it's quite impossible to be back just like those glorious old times.
but i silently keep believing.
i hurts so much. i know it'll be.

"you cant cling to the past. because no matter how tightly you hold on, it's already gone." i know. people say it's easier to move on.
teach me how?
how can you just give up the memories built for over years?
some of you think the most important is to hold both the present and the future.
true. you're right. nothing wrong.
but how can you ignore the past?
how can you just dishonor the hard works and memories by telling us to completely forget the past?
no. that's not it.
it might be -just like people said- a brutal drama.
but which way i took, i never once regretted.
still tho, it hurts like hell.

i'm trying to live the way it is now.
i wont complain anymore, promise.
no more hatred, no more weeps.
i respect every decision you take.
have i moved on?
maybe?
but...is it illegal to just have a faith? just like the others?
you yourselves even said it um? always keep the faith.
now it's not about who's better, no, at least not for us.
even if it's 3 and 2 now, it wont be a matter, really.
because it's all about how we're still here through ups and downs, and everything.
and we're still going....

lets just say this..sooner or later when we meet each other, when we look for each other..
tho it may not be the same as before...
lets talk about those days...those beautiful and blissful days. and those days that we lost..... 


they've parted ways for so long, but the memories will remain. some may had moved on, some will continue to believe. it's all up to you ;)
i wasn't there from the beginning but i'll be there til the very end :)


#HAPPYTVXQ10YEARSANNIVERSARY
special tribute for Hero, Micky, U-now, Xiah, and Max :3


masihlamawoydesemberkanitu.
bodoamatmumpunglagi#emoshinki :")))))



......I'm holding back the tears
I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart 
To a place that is neither close nor far 
Where a different me stands 
I will not cry 

I'm holding back the tears
I run adding to the weight of my faith 
To a place that is neither high nor low 
Where a different me stands again 
With a small smile I can laugh.......

(TVXQ - Holding Back The Tears)

*weeping* damn, my boys :"))))))))))

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